“sadness is but a wall between two gardens”
So apparently I needed more than an evening to process the news; I needed a day.
I caught up on email yesterday morning and then took the rest of the day as a vacation day. After a happy sad day spent with the pup, I went to sleep. It is amazing what a difference a day makes in your perspective as I woke up this morning with my usual sunny optimism. I did, however, cancel my trip to China next week. Along with the news about Atlas, I learned that my grama was admitted to the hospital with pneumonia on Tuesday night so it just did not feel like a good time to be thousands of miles away from home.
But .. while I was doing some google searching, I came across a sadness meditation. The basic premise seems to be that when you try to distract yourself from the sadness, it remains in the back of your mind, always present. If you allow yourself to actually feel the sadness, however, it will eventually leave you – and leave peace in its place. This made a great deal of sense to me so I thought I’d try it. I must say, it worked like a charm. After a few minutes of forcing myself to sink deep into the sadness, it went away – completely.
[quote by Kahlil Gibran]